One door close, another one opens...

I am officially an employee of St. John Providence Hospital.   3 days of driving to perform preliminary work tasks was less than 1 days worth of miles driving to my previous employer.  To break it down, 3 days = 150 miles vs. 160 miles in 1 day.  God bless the journey I have been on and thank you Lord for the road ahead.

Pregnancy update: I feel well. Tired but OK.  I have the next week off to lay back and relax before my longtime dream career begins.  I can't express the joy in my heart for life right now.  I am truly blessed and grateful.  Perseverance pays off as well as hard work and dedication.  Praise the Lord!

Have a nice weekend everyone,
Angela <3 <3

On the Wings of Change

Hello my lovelies.  I'm having difficulty writing about anything with substance these days. I'm letting go of bitchfest blogs and attempting to be more positive. Let's start with  my pregnancy.  I am sooo blessed.  Please God continue to work your marvelous wonders with our baby. May he be worthy of your love and be an heir to the kingdom of Heaven.  I'm juggling reading pleasure books, bible study and pregnancy books.  I can do this!  I will finish Jane Eyre if it kills me haha.  I am accomplishing Mission Organization little by little.  Out with the old!

I'm loving family more than ever.  My three beautiful nieces, my favorite cousin and her 2 boys, my parents, Rob's family.  It's so nice to feel such support during this transition period.  Hubby has been the best.  He makes me feel so beautiful and loved, even when I feel like poo poo. 

I, like everyone else, needs constant reminders how much we are blessed and fortunate this holiday season.  We have a roof over our heads, food on our table, clothes on our back, and people that love us.  This is what life is all about.  Let us take time to be still and reflect this advent season.

Blessings and Health,
Angela <3 <3

Balance is Key

Life is grand. Love is grand. I feel silly writing about my personal thoughts.  I mean, who gives a damn. That's why I have a journal.  I guess I'm pretty boring these days.  But I'm fine with that.  Boring = peace and happiness in my book.  Speaking of books, I just can't find the time to sit down and read a freaking novel.  I don't make time for it.  Right now I'm reading pregnancy books.  Oh will there ever be time for pleasure reading.  First it was classic literature in high school for AP English, then college books, then study materials.   Pretty soon I'll be reading study materials again to beef up my knowledge on the new patients at St. John's.

Granny says there is too much on my plate and I'm going to have to give up some things.  I just love other people telling me how to live my life :).  My response, "This is how I live my life."  Nuff said.  I dread the day I'm going to have to say, "This is how we are raising our baby." Our baby.  I know she wants to help and feel needed, but I will not hesitate.  Assertiveness skills are in full swing.

Overall, I love life. I love my husband. I love this teeny tiny person inside me. I love Jesus.  Sober living is really nice actually :) There's a natural high I can't describe.  I feel happier, less moody and clear minded.  Thank the Lord for this clarity. 

Happy Hump Day,
Angela <3 <3

Grown Ups

I don't have much to say today.  Three words come to mind: anguish, joy and temptation -  The theme to this week's Bible Study in the Book of James.  I have a lot of thinking to do.  Growing up to do.

I fully accept this journey we (Rob and I) are on.  I can fall in love with the miracle because God is in progress.  Replace fear with love. Ask in confidence and continue to listen to His whispers of wisdom.

Can I be quiet enough to hear?

Contemplating,
Angela <3 <3

Seasons Greetings

Welcome December!! Advent season is here.  A time for reflection, quietness, prayer, worship and praise.  My prayer is that I can become quiet and listen to God's wisdom.  Knowledge is learned.  Wisdom is a gift from God.  "Not only can we go to God for wisdom with the confidence that we will receive; we must go to God for wisdom with the absolute confidence that we will receive." 

Wisdom to me means knowing that everything will work out and I don't have to worry about it.  I know this. I don't always practice it.  Sometimes I don't know how.  My fears can become overpowering. My joy is put on the back burner.  That is why I need to bring all my worries, wants and needs to Him. Relax and enjoy this blessing God has given us!! Thank you thank you thank you Jesus.

Worry Free,
Angela <3 <3

Too Blessed to be Stressed

Every pregnancy is different I imagine.  My emotions are good, just crying a little more these days.  My selfish self is becoming upset with weight gain.  I'm eating normal as I would if I'm not pregnant but craving sweets i.e. orange juice, fruits, cinnamon rolls.  What am I supposed to do about clothes? Jeans?  Obviously don't want to spend a ton of money.  Thank goodness I'll work in scrubs soon.   It's not easy hiding these exploding boobs and ghetto booty LOL, especially working with boys. I'm not depressed about it, but am having a hard time accepting it. It will not get easier, that's for damn sure. However, if I just eat healthy, exercise and know that hubby finds me sexy no matter what, I should be ok. God grant me the serenity!!

I don't feel hungry. I don't feel nauseous. I'm freezing, not hot. I don't feel tired.  Sometimes I wonder if I really am pregnant! But reading the babycenter.com, this is normal.  I am just fortunate to not experience that.  I'm actually quite thankful. I have circulation problems in my right leg.   I felt pain last night and if anyone knows me, they know veins DISGUST me.  So I started crying not because of the pain because it grosses me out.  One time in college when I was a smoker, I called my mom sobbing because I thought I had a blood clot. Thank God I quite smoking years ago (almost 3 to be exact).  So this is the main motivation of exercising. 

Have a great weekend everyone!
Angela <3 <3

Um, Hello!

Sometimes I take a gander at my horiscope because it's fun, although Father David may not agree  :-/  But if we think about the Magi aka The Three Wiseman followed the star to Jesus so I don't know.  Anyways here's what my horiscope said today.

Daily Extended for December 1, 2011

Your emotional vision is a perfect 20/20 today. You will finally see things in a clear, honest way. With little mystery left, the choice will be clear for you. Saying goodbye is surprisingly easy today when you know that this fork in the road holds two very rewarding (yet different) paths for you. You now see that staying on the same path is a mistake for you. You're entering a strong selfless phase that will keep your heart warm even when you're missing people you love.

 

I mean, is that not right on the money?

 

 

Switching Gears

The secretary informed me that my boss talks behinds others' backs, including mine.  Normally I would get upset, but No! This just makes me fired up.  I will leave this place a legacy.  I am a registered occupational therapist who loves what I do and the kids I work with.  I may not want to work here any longer and maybe that is apparent to her.  So this is what I am going to do.  I will put on a smile every single day till I leave. I will be on time.  I will work harder to let her know I am not slacking.  My energy and motivation is now kicked into overdrive!

So what if she has little snied remarks.  So what! So what if anyone thinks or speaks behind my back.  Because at this point in my life, I don't give a shit!!  This is part of my growing process and it sure feels good.  My life is my life; my parenting skills will be my own; my world doesn't revolve around anyone else but my family's- Rob and me! 

Can I get an Amen?! :)

Cheers,
Angela <3 <3