One door close, another one opens...

I am officially an employee of St. John Providence Hospital.   3 days of driving to perform preliminary work tasks was less than 1 days worth of miles driving to my previous employer.  To break it down, 3 days = 150 miles vs. 160 miles in 1 day.  God bless the journey I have been on and thank you Lord for the road ahead.

Pregnancy update: I feel well. Tired but OK.  I have the next week off to lay back and relax before my longtime dream career begins.  I can't express the joy in my heart for life right now.  I am truly blessed and grateful.  Perseverance pays off as well as hard work and dedication.  Praise the Lord!

Have a nice weekend everyone,
Angela <3 <3

On the Wings of Change

Hello my lovelies.  I'm having difficulty writing about anything with substance these days. I'm letting go of bitchfest blogs and attempting to be more positive. Let's start with  my pregnancy.  I am sooo blessed.  Please God continue to work your marvelous wonders with our baby. May he be worthy of your love and be an heir to the kingdom of Heaven.  I'm juggling reading pleasure books, bible study and pregnancy books.  I can do this!  I will finish Jane Eyre if it kills me haha.  I am accomplishing Mission Organization little by little.  Out with the old!

I'm loving family more than ever.  My three beautiful nieces, my favorite cousin and her 2 boys, my parents, Rob's family.  It's so nice to feel such support during this transition period.  Hubby has been the best.  He makes me feel so beautiful and loved, even when I feel like poo poo. 

I, like everyone else, needs constant reminders how much we are blessed and fortunate this holiday season.  We have a roof over our heads, food on our table, clothes on our back, and people that love us.  This is what life is all about.  Let us take time to be still and reflect this advent season.

Blessings and Health,
Angela <3 <3

Balance is Key

Life is grand. Love is grand. I feel silly writing about my personal thoughts.  I mean, who gives a damn. That's why I have a journal.  I guess I'm pretty boring these days.  But I'm fine with that.  Boring = peace and happiness in my book.  Speaking of books, I just can't find the time to sit down and read a freaking novel.  I don't make time for it.  Right now I'm reading pregnancy books.  Oh will there ever be time for pleasure reading.  First it was classic literature in high school for AP English, then college books, then study materials.   Pretty soon I'll be reading study materials again to beef up my knowledge on the new patients at St. John's.

Granny says there is too much on my plate and I'm going to have to give up some things.  I just love other people telling me how to live my life :).  My response, "This is how I live my life."  Nuff said.  I dread the day I'm going to have to say, "This is how we are raising our baby." Our baby.  I know she wants to help and feel needed, but I will not hesitate.  Assertiveness skills are in full swing.

Overall, I love life. I love my husband. I love this teeny tiny person inside me. I love Jesus.  Sober living is really nice actually :) There's a natural high I can't describe.  I feel happier, less moody and clear minded.  Thank the Lord for this clarity. 

Happy Hump Day,
Angela <3 <3

Grown Ups

I don't have much to say today.  Three words come to mind: anguish, joy and temptation -  The theme to this week's Bible Study in the Book of James.  I have a lot of thinking to do.  Growing up to do.

I fully accept this journey we (Rob and I) are on.  I can fall in love with the miracle because God is in progress.  Replace fear with love. Ask in confidence and continue to listen to His whispers of wisdom.

Can I be quiet enough to hear?

Contemplating,
Angela <3 <3

Seasons Greetings

Welcome December!! Advent season is here.  A time for reflection, quietness, prayer, worship and praise.  My prayer is that I can become quiet and listen to God's wisdom.  Knowledge is learned.  Wisdom is a gift from God.  "Not only can we go to God for wisdom with the confidence that we will receive; we must go to God for wisdom with the absolute confidence that we will receive." 

Wisdom to me means knowing that everything will work out and I don't have to worry about it.  I know this. I don't always practice it.  Sometimes I don't know how.  My fears can become overpowering. My joy is put on the back burner.  That is why I need to bring all my worries, wants and needs to Him. Relax and enjoy this blessing God has given us!! Thank you thank you thank you Jesus.

Worry Free,
Angela <3 <3

Too Blessed to be Stressed

Every pregnancy is different I imagine.  My emotions are good, just crying a little more these days.  My selfish self is becoming upset with weight gain.  I'm eating normal as I would if I'm not pregnant but craving sweets i.e. orange juice, fruits, cinnamon rolls.  What am I supposed to do about clothes? Jeans?  Obviously don't want to spend a ton of money.  Thank goodness I'll work in scrubs soon.   It's not easy hiding these exploding boobs and ghetto booty LOL, especially working with boys. I'm not depressed about it, but am having a hard time accepting it. It will not get easier, that's for damn sure. However, if I just eat healthy, exercise and know that hubby finds me sexy no matter what, I should be ok. God grant me the serenity!!

I don't feel hungry. I don't feel nauseous. I'm freezing, not hot. I don't feel tired.  Sometimes I wonder if I really am pregnant! But reading the babycenter.com, this is normal.  I am just fortunate to not experience that.  I'm actually quite thankful. I have circulation problems in my right leg.   I felt pain last night and if anyone knows me, they know veins DISGUST me.  So I started crying not because of the pain because it grosses me out.  One time in college when I was a smoker, I called my mom sobbing because I thought I had a blood clot. Thank God I quite smoking years ago (almost 3 to be exact).  So this is the main motivation of exercising. 

Have a great weekend everyone!
Angela <3 <3

Um, Hello!

Sometimes I take a gander at my horiscope because it's fun, although Father David may not agree  :-/  But if we think about the Magi aka The Three Wiseman followed the star to Jesus so I don't know.  Anyways here's what my horiscope said today.

Daily Extended for December 1, 2011

Your emotional vision is a perfect 20/20 today. You will finally see things in a clear, honest way. With little mystery left, the choice will be clear for you. Saying goodbye is surprisingly easy today when you know that this fork in the road holds two very rewarding (yet different) paths for you. You now see that staying on the same path is a mistake for you. You're entering a strong selfless phase that will keep your heart warm even when you're missing people you love.

 

I mean, is that not right on the money?

 

 

Switching Gears

The secretary informed me that my boss talks behinds others' backs, including mine.  Normally I would get upset, but No! This just makes me fired up.  I will leave this place a legacy.  I am a registered occupational therapist who loves what I do and the kids I work with.  I may not want to work here any longer and maybe that is apparent to her.  So this is what I am going to do.  I will put on a smile every single day till I leave. I will be on time.  I will work harder to let her know I am not slacking.  My energy and motivation is now kicked into overdrive!

So what if she has little snied remarks.  So what! So what if anyone thinks or speaks behind my back.  Because at this point in my life, I don't give a shit!!  This is part of my growing process and it sure feels good.  My life is my life; my parenting skills will be my own; my world doesn't revolve around anyone else but my family's- Rob and me! 

Can I get an Amen?! :)

Cheers,
Angela <3 <3

Great Expectations

Although the hike to work was a rather slow one, I made it safe and sound.  It was actually a pretty drive in.

This journey is so exciting.  And all of you have been following it the whole time with me! From passing my test to finding a new job to creating a baby!    Holy smokes...what a journey it has been. 

I've decided to create the healthiest housing for our little one including eating well and exercise.  Whatever the baby wants, I will give it or them as Rob would say haha. I have been doing yoga which helps my energy and mood.  The doctor said that although you may say things because you are hormonal, be careful because words can not be taken back.  I haven't been especially mean to Rob; I plan on being as nice as I possibly can!  I ordered 3 pregnancy workout DVD's, 1 being my all time favorite fitness guru Denise Austin.  She's the best! I'm sooo excited to try them out.

Christmas time is approaching and I couldn't be more in the spirit.  I am getting gifts little by little.  I am starting a new knitting project...wish me luck.  I know I am a beginner, but it is difficult.  How does these women know so much?  It's still overwhelming; however, the feeling of accomplishment is rewarding as well as the look on the person's face when giving them the final product. 

Emotions are good.  My little worry bug is remaining dormant, thank God.  I just keep thinking positive and try to relax as no one knows what will happen in life.  I bring all my worries and anxieties to Jesus.  He is always there to listen.  How refreshing!!  Please continue to Bless Rob, myself and this heavenly being inside me.

So my purpose for passing my test was to....have a baby?? Everything is in God's time and there's no explanation.  Either way Rob and I are ecstatic.  He's like a kid in a candy store!

One thing that I am pondering is...do I call the manager (who really likes me by the way) and tell him of the news before I go in for the physical, blood work and urine test for the new job???  I don't want it to be a surprise and think I was keeping it a secret.  My heart says I should.  My doctor says I should wait until I signed the paperwork, because after all...this is my dream job and I've worked too hard to let that go!! What do you ladies think??

My wish and prayer is that the holiday season will bring blessings and joy to all of you!  Thank you for sharing my life. Xoxo

Angela <3 <3

Bringing Tidings of Great Joy!

Great news!! St. John Providence made me an offer I couldn't refuse, so of course I accepted!! My beautiful niece was born Saturday morning at 4:22 am.  8 lbs 2 oz.  She's an angel straight from heaven!

Also...Rob and I are expecting our first child!! Thank you Jesus.  Wow, what has life thrown us :) I am 6 weeks which puts my due date to July 22. 

Today I feel ok. The maintenance man at work said I've been ornery haha.  Well, yes because I can't stand the drive any longer. Because I don't want to be here.  Because I am tired.   Because I have acne I can't get rid of.  God help me put on a smile to finish this journey at my current job and leave a legacy!!

Please pray for the health and growth of the baby,
Angela <3 <3

"We're gonna set an ex..am..ple."

Sometimes I engage in secret behaviors I once did back during my unhealthy days.  If I told you, it wouldn't be a secret lol.  Anyways I quickly told myself to stop and am feeling a little better...

This is a time of year to pursue new habits, reflect on thanksgiving and know in your heart you are watched over and blessed by God Almighty!  Amen to that!  So much to give thanks for this season; I'd like to name a few.

1. My family for their undying love and support
2. My true blue friends who show unconditional love for who I am
3. My husband of 1 year for his caring, understanding, love and faith in me
4. Passing my test!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
5. Closer to finding a new job closer to home
6. Our home, although close to his family, it still is a beautiful home to raise children [for now :)]
7. New friends, prayer groups, clubs and hobbies
8. My heart belonging to God
9. Peace and joy in everyday living
10. The secret inside me

Lord above,
You have blessed Rob and I beyond belief.  Times have been tough, we have had our struggles, we have had hardships.  But You continue to knit us together with the fabric of your love, perfectly weaving piece by piece until we are complete.  Thank you for Rob, dear God.  He is a wonderful man who loves you very much. Please continue to prepare us for our future.

Amen,
Angela <3 <3

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!!! 

(the quote above is from Addams Family Values...I suggest you rent it. HILARIOUS!! Perfect for Thanksgiving.)

Let Go and Let God

Praise the Lord,

 

I wanted to share how last night's message at Bible Study struck a cord.  I keep thinking James wanting us to "LIVE IT", meaning we are need to live the Word, not only think it or speak it.  Actions speak louder than words.  For myself, I have great faith. I always know God has a plan for me, no matter how many obstacles, hardships or extra baggage life can bring.  I pray daily, almost every hour upon hour, thanking Jesus.

 

But sometimes evil tries to rain on my parade and cause negative emotions.  I worry or have anxiety about things I can not change.  GOD grant me the serenity! How can I have faith and know I can put all worries into God's hands, yet I have trouble letting go and letting God do His wonders?  Because sometimes I don't "Live it."  I let the negative get the best of me.  This is my prayer for myself and for all of you...that we put all our troubles in the Lord's hands so we may enjoy life He wants us to live.  Worry and anxiety free!!

 

Amen sisters!

Prayer for Motherhood

O glorious Saint Gerard,
powerful intercessor before God,
and wonder worker of your day,
I call upon you and seek your help.
You who always fulfilled God's will
on earth, help me to do God's Holy will.
Intercede with the Giver of Life, from
whom all parenthood proceeds,
that I may conceive and raise
children who will please God
in this life, and be heirs to the
kingdom of heaven. Amen.

This is a special time.  Thank you Jesus.

Blessed,
Angela <3 <3

P is for Patience

The interview at Oakwood Heritage Hospital in Taylor went well. I really liked it!  I'm not sure though.  St. John stated I was the top candidate and will be making an offer, but hasn't yet.  I'm getting nervous but I need to be patient. 

P is for putting my trust in God
A is for accepting things I can not change
T is for tenacity in which pays big rewards
I is for identifying my need to sit still and relax
E is for encouragement from others
N is for needing to hold my tongue from negative comments
C is for counting my blessings
E is for everything has a purpose

Amen Sistas!
Angela <3 <3

Comfortably Numb

Today is not a good day.  I only got 4 hours of sleep.  I'm upset.  I think I'll go home early.

Please Lord lift up my spirits.  Speak to my heart.  Show me the way.

Blank,
Angela

Dreaming in Color

It was difficult rising this morning after the dream I had.  I dreamt that I was in the most beautiful castle of 5 stories.  I only saw the inside. The home had staircases from all different floors and directions.  The 3rd floor were the sleeping chambers.  Mid century wardrobes housed elegant gowns.  The dresses looked out of a 1920's movie and were draped over the bed. The dress I wore was red ruby shiny silk. Another emerald silk gown hung from the wardrobe. The main floor, the 4th level had a living area with an inviting fireplace, lots of framed artwork on the mantel and shelves.  Ornate cobalt blue vases and figurines sat on the tables.  Around the corner was a hallway with another fireplace. The space was naturally lit by tthe openness of long stretched windows, only finding the most extraordinary view I could image.  Looking out I saw rolling hills, a beautiful sky line, small buildings down below, as if I were in another country, perhaps Scotland. At that  moment I prayed to God that one day He would bless me with a home as magnificent as this one.  I did not make it to the 5th floor, nor did I see the 1st or 2nd. I was right at the heart of this home.

How does one interpret this dream?  Do you dream in color?  My faith and humbleness are made visible, hoping and praying that I receive everything my heart deserves if it be the will of God. Maybe I've been at the middle for a long time, constantly climbing the stairs to get to the top.  My mom says I have been very patient with God.  I've always know He has a purpose for me. :) 
Any thoughts?

Angela <3 <3

Coincidence?? Or maybe not...

I just had to share this story.  So I was looking up meaning a baby name.  I'm not pregnant but wanted to find out the meaning of Lydia, my paternal grandmother's name.  It means- Noble Kind, but also Lydia is the name of a historic region of Asia Minor.  Doing my bible study work, I'm reading Acts of the Apostles, stating that Paul eventually joined the community, which subsequently commissioned Peter and Barnabas to undertake the spread of the gospel to Asia Minor.

Interesting!  What are the chances?  Is God telling me something?

Counted Blessings

Not much going on today.  I have a phone interview on Wednesday evening for Rainbow Rehab in Ypsilanti.  They never have openings so I'm super excited. Then the interview on Thursday. Things are happening, thank you Jesus.  When telling the job recruiter about yet another interview, she did not respond.  I'm kind of rubbing in her face. "No one is interested in speaking to you yet."  Well, lady that's bologna.

St. John Providence Hospital is going to make me an offer. My heart tells me that's the place for me.  I am 90% sure I will take the job; I will know more after this week.  I'm ready to move on, drive less and do what I really want to do.

This weekend I spent some time with mission organization.

• Donated books, clothes, movies
• Winterized our back yard by saying good bye to summer lawn decorations
• Went through study material, old bills, etc.

Going through study material brought back memories for sure.  THANK YOU JESUS FOR MY PASSING!!  I am forever grateful.  So glad I can do things I enjoy, like organizing :)

Happy Monday everyone,
Angela <3 <3

Make a Wish

11-11-11.  Happy Veterans Day's. 

God is Good.  Granny, my mother-in-law and I went to the casino last night and all of us won some money, thank you Jesus.  I got home, packed and cleaned my house as I am leaving for the cottage after work. I'm so tired! I did well going to be early the beginning of the week, but have not the remainder.  I will go to bed early tonight though.  Rob likes to be in bed at 9 so he can get up for the big hunt.  It's actually really nice to be tucked inside our camper next to hubby snuggling, keeping warm. Most hunters won't allow their wives to come along.  I'm lucky.  Is there such a thing as luck? Or just plan fortune?  Hmm...

I feel like I'm losing steam with work.  This week we've had a training so motivation to accomplish anything afterwards have been low.  Gosh I wish the employees get paid more, with all the work and challenges with the students, they deserve it! Please pray for me that I become motivated and continue to show my dedication to work, even though I can't WAIT to find a job closer.

I have an interview next Thursday at Oakwood Heritage Outpatient Rehab. Yay!  I'm so super excited.

Fortunate,
Angela <3 <3

Eat, Pray, Love

As part of the Princess Posse (Bible study group), we were each given a Pray Bucketlist.  I have put some thought into what I would like to pray for, although specific, it is my reality and I pray that I deserve God's blessing to achieve half of this list.

1.  A welcoming job close to home that is fulfilling and rewarding
2. A large house close to our families
3. A successful pregnancy
4. To have a long happy marriage
5. To live a sober life
6. My sister in law to have a successful delivery
7. To live comfortably financially
8. My family to remain healthy and Cathy to get healthy **
9. To gain uplifting, nonjudgmental life long friendships
10. To be happy no matter what happens in life.

I am happy.  But there is a void that needs filling up.  I used to fill it with partying, cigarettes, promiscuity, whatever.  I'm now hungry from something more and that hunger will be fed by the Lord Jesus Christ.  He will lift me up, fill me and help me help others.  I'm hoping my bible study group will fulfill #9. Theres a sadness in regards to that, but maybe that's life.  I have my family and they are the best. 

Complaining is just as poisonous as gossip sometimes, in which I have been doing often. We were also given a note card with this on it at the study (Ironically):

Do everything without complaining or arguing,
so that you may become blameless and pure,
children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation,
in which you shine like stars in the universe.

Philippians 2:14-15

Here's the first sign of winter.  It is magical and beautiful.

Let me know of any prayer requests.  I will bring them to my next session and all the ladies can have you in there thoughts.

Wonderland,

Angela <3 <3



Families do not shrink; Families grow

I am now participating in Bible Study group on every other Monday night.  I welcome new friends to lift up my spirits and talk Jesus. We are studying the Book of James.  I can't wait to dive into it.  Family was the theme this week.  This got me thinking of Granny.  Yes I have had some feelings but we have been spending a lot more time together lately.  It's like spending time with my own grandmother.  She is all I have left.  I lift up her spirits when she worries about the family, or bring her attention to the positive when she turns to the negative.  In some odd way, I feel she needs me.  She was upset over a situation yesterday and called to ask if I would come by and sit with her.  We enjoyed or (I enjoyed) a little wine; she's made a bitter face then slammed it. Haha. We talked about Rob and mine future, the future of my niece and overall putting our worries into God's hands.  I found out there are twins on her family side, Rob's grandpa's, my grandmother AND grandfather's side.  We might be next!  Can you image? :)

Detox Report: So-So
I finally gave out the rest of my Halloween Candy to the staff at work
Drinking more water
Making better food choices, but still exceeding weight watcher points :(
Going to bed earlier
No physical activity this week

Oh well, tomorrow is a new day!

Reach out to a family member if it's been awhile and let them know you love them today.

Blessings,
Angela <3 <3

Monday, Monday

Today I am tired.  I feel sluggish, unmotivated and bloated.  Great for a Monday, eh? Maybe the lethargic feelings are causing some strange emotions about the workplace.  People are different.  I feel different.  I anxiously await a phone call for the next interview or  a job offer so I can start the new chapter.  I visited my friend last night.  She gave me some motivation to start eating better, working out, and to be disciplined.  Yep that lasted until about noon today. Someone brought in cake.  Do you think I listened to my brain say no? Of course not.  A tiny moment of enjoyment has now lead me to feeling yucky.  I have consumed so much sugar this past few weeks.  Seriously time to detox and feel better for goodness sakes.

I planned on mission organization this weekend, but allowed myself to sit and veg out with movies, and knitting.  I did manage to put away the Halloween decorations, put up Harvest ones and complete laundry :) Mary Jane felt the same way too.  Hubby was hunting, so baby girl and I relaxed.  That's doing something, right!

That's her curled up on my legs, feeling productive as I did haha.

Overall, it was nice weekend with family, friends, Tony Montana (Scarface), knitting, football, Merlot, and last but not least Miss World 2011. How fulfilling! ;)

Check out this quote for Miss Universe 1994:

Question: If you could live forever, would you and why?

Answer: I would not live forever, because we should not live forever, because if we were supposed to live forever, then we would live forever, but we cannot live forever, which is why I would not live forever.

- Miss Alabama in the 1994 Miss Universe contest

Genius. (Sorry Tiff) haha!

Energizing,

Angela <3 <3

Sweet November

Ahhh..the month of November is here.  It's time to put away the Halloween decorations, fall back for daylight savings time, and for hubby to "a hunting he will go."  Now that all the parties have come to a halt, I can spend time with something I've trying to achieve since kindergarten as Lesley would say. Get Organized!! We decided to stay in our home for a little while. With me looking for a new job and all, it makes sense.  Things have gotten better with our neighbors; it works for now.  I am planning a Community Watch in our neighborhood and am team captain.  Nerd Alert! haha oh well, that's me.

Missions Organization includes:

• Organize my home desk
• Organize Holiday totes
• Organize books and donate
• Organize mail
• Organize summer clothes and donate
• Organize Rob's clothes (he has as much as me!)
• Does anyone know what to do with a bazillion hats??

I applied at two other facilities.  I have a good feeling St. John's might hire me but whatever the Good Lord wants for me, I will accept with open arms!

Thank you Jesus for Happiness,
Angela <3 <3

Non-Desperate Housewives

What's significance of this day?  It's National Housewife Day!  Cheers to all stay at home mommies, family glue, and devoted wife and mothers!  Today we celebrate and thank all the ladies who tend the house and families!  Dr. Laura Schlessinger praises you to being committed to the priority of raising your children.

Housewife Day recognizes the importance of stay at home wives and moms. Also referred to as "Retro" Housewife Day. These wonderful, caring creatures, build and enrich strong family environments. They help to instill family values and good character.

Housewife is an old term. It hails back to the days when one income could support the family in a manner of comfort. It was also a time when women did not have equal rights. While these days are long gone, women views of working or staying at home, fall on both sides of the fence. The decision to be a "housewife", or stay at home mom, is still preferred by many.

When I think of a housewive, I think of my beautiful amazing Cousin/Sister Lauri.  She is a stay at home mother to two wonderful little men.  She gets to see every single waking moment they grow and evolve into their own person.  She gets to comfort all their bumps and bruises. She gets to celebrate all accomplishments, not matter how big or small.  Most importantly, she gets to shower them with love and teach them how to be a good person she has always been.  I love you Lauri!!
 
Another one is my sister in law, Heather!  Even though she works from home, I still consider her to be a housewife.  She takes care of the home; she's the family's rock.  Never is there a moment she doesn't have a home cooked meal or reading to her daughter or making my brother happy.  I love you Heather!!
 
P.S. Happy 30th Birthday Kristin!!  She is another wifey/ mommy that needs praise.  I love you too!
 
Praise to all Stay at Home Moms!
Angela <3 <3

Fear ends where Faith begins

Both interviews went well.  I like St. John's Providence better than DMC.  The vibe was more welcoming and inviting.  The manager was friendly, professional and chatty (the interview was 2 1/2 hours!).  The drive took 25-30 and was 18 miles from our door to his.  The pay is better.  It's a no brainer!  If offered the position, I will take it.  Whether at this hospital or another, I have to move on for my family.  Thank you Jesus for both interview experiences. I discussed things with my boss and she is completely understanding, which will make the transition a lot smoother.

So we shall see what the Lord has in store next!  Now, I have to work on restoring my faith for things that are unseen and have yet to come.  I can now relax.  Deep breaths and a little bit of.....ahhhhh!

In the meantime,
Angela <3 <3

"Serenity Now," says Kramer

Happy Halloween!  One of my favorite times of year.  October is coming to a close, and what a busy month it has been. I'm truly enjoying life.  Hubby and I are doing so well, more in love than ever.  We are finally living our life the way we want. We went looking at homes this weekend near the cottage.  Still looking for the perfect home for the perfect price.  I spent a lot of time knitting this weekend, alone in my own thoughts, talking to God, making decisions or trying to anyways. Rob says I try to make things happen instead of having things fall into place.  True.  I need a prayer to help me through these times. 

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will direct your paths.

Proverbs 3, 5-6

At this very moment as I'm typing this, St. John Providence Hospital called. I have set up interview for a full time OT for inpatient rehab.  It's a Catholic Hospital! The director stated that spirituality is "very important" in providing patient care with a holistic approach.  Well, that's right up my alley.  My entire college career and thereafter, I've wanted to work in inpatient rehab at a hospital.  That has been my passion. Is this a sign from God?! I think so...wish me luck!!

Blessings and health,

Angela <3 <3

Transition Period

I'm officially licensed in the State of MI to practice Occupational Therapy.  What a journey it has been.  I have an interview at Detroit Medical Center (DMC) Sinai Grace Hospital in inpatient and acute care setting. 

My emotions are so up and down lately.  I cry at the littlest things, from thinking about leaving my students to sweet text messages from my husband.  I don't know what's going on. I'm sitting here on the verge of tears as I type away.

Truth is, I'm terrified for this change. A change of employer, change of coworkers, change of patients, change of routine, change of home. My dad always tell me I'm the bravest person he knows. My husband says he's proud of me for getting an interview.  The job recruiter said she has called employers and no one is interested in speaking to me yet.  Well I don't need her.  I found this opportunity on my own. 

Comfy cushiony job has a lot of perks, as you seen the Pro list. If this new job hires me, it will be a challenge with my patients and skills. I will have to get more serious. I will have to grow up.  Are we ever ready to grow up?  I've been waiting from a sign from God to help me with my decisions. Sometimes I think I don't listen to him.  My prayer is that I shut off my own mind to hear God's words. Thank you ladies for your advice.

Holy Spirit Hear my Prayers,
Angela <3

Decisions, Decisions

Sometimes I'm so indecisive and wishy-washy...I can't stand it.  Its annoying but that's me!  Indecisive Libra..what the heck.  Rob and I decided that if we find the most amazing deal for our dream home, we will jump on it.  I found this awesome home in Gregory near our family cottage.  I immediately contact our realtor to check it out.  Come to find out, our friends already put an offer on it.  I was disappointed but they deserve it!  So with that being said, I'm now thinking about staying at my current job if we do find a home out that way. I love/dislike my current job for several reasons. I came up with a Pros and Cons list.  Tell me what you think; I would like some opinions please.

Pros	Cons
Friendly staff and great boss	Drive to work
Great hours	Low Pay
Invested 2 1/2 years	Not population I want
Paid holidays, school system days off: MLK, etc.	Not too good with Sensory Integration
Self motivated learning	Having to learn everything on my own
Make own schedule	Need more learn more school based practices
Love the students	Wear and tear of my car
Students respect me
Maintenance to fix things for me
Own office which I designed
Opportunities to conduct research
Wonderful organization, philosophy and mission
President & VP’s are fascinated with my work
Beautiful campus
$3,000 continued edu every year to stay for 2 years
Our school is expanding
Opportunity for Fieldwork Site
Can do yoga, coping skills, stress management
Reimbursement for $500 to stay 2 years
Own parking space
Able to control own heating and cooling
Sensory Integration is the future
Opportunities to become a Director
Opportunities to create a Rehab staff i.e. PT, SLP
Able to leave early, accumulate flex hours
Don’t have to punch in
Able to get any assessment, equipment and supplies through Starr’s budget
Able to get other work done i.e. pay bills, make important phone calls on lunch hour
Make my own forms, data sheets, documents, etc.

Here are some pictures of the Sensory Room I designed:

Obviously more Pros but again, I am torn. Does money = happiness?  No but it means more $ to pay off our bills and live comfortably.  I could get a second job as a contingent worker for extra income.  This might help me decide if I like something better. Overall, I am grateful that I have a job I actually enjoy.

Puzzled,
Angela <3

Walking on Sunshine

I'm having a much better day, Thank you Jesus.  I talked to hubby about our future and it took a lot of stress off of me.  We know what we want out of life.  God's will is neverending, so I need to RELAX and enjoy each day. 

This may be boring (sorry) but I am going to use this blog to track down my exercise routines.  Maybe I'll inspire someone else because that is what I aim to do.  I made a serious committment to get healthy and detox.  It's about damn time.

Sunday- Jog around the block with Mary Jane.  20 Minutes DVD- Yoga Fat Blasting. 20 Minutes DVD- Yoga Essentials

Our Baby Girl :)

Monday- Went to the Gym for a 30 minutes routine as that was all time allowed.  Treadmill 3.6 speed for 15 minutes.  Arizona Heat Room for 15 minutes to sweat out impurities.

It feels good to exercise.  I'm hopeful to do something at least 3-4x per week.  Wish me luck!

Moving and a Groovin,
Angela <3 <3

Inhale, Exhale

I'm a little sad right now.  I'm waiting on my license to practice in the state of MI and they have to "review" my past because I answered "yes" to one question.  I have to check back in 3 weeks.  Lord is making patience become quite the virtue for me. I need my license to practice, to get a new job, to start another path.

Our friends just bought a house, which sounds like Rob and I's dream home.  So we are a little jealous but happy because they work extremely hard and deserve it.  Rob and I know what we want.  House with 3-4 bedrooms, a basement, fireplace, an acre or 3, large kitchen and fairly new. Where exactly?  I don't know.  I don't know what job I am going to end up.  Everything is dependent upon my job.  Do I find a home first then a job or vica versa? I have applied for some jobs that interested me! Do I contact other job recruiters, continue to job search on my own or do I wait for my initial recruiter to contact me??? My patience is running thin...

I guess the bright side is that I can take these 3 weeks to detox and focus on becoming more healthy.  I started working out yesterday.  Mary Jane and I jogged around the block.  I did Fat Blasting Yoga and Yoga Essentials DVD by my favorite, Denise Austin.  I plan on going to the gym today to sweat out my toxins. 

I thought I had everything planned out.  Now I'm feeling lost, and down with not knowing what is going to happen.  So many factors to consider in these decisions. PLEASE DEAR GOD...HELP ME RELAX AND LET YOU DO THE WORK.

Breathing,
Angela <3 <3

Don't Sweat The small Stuff

I need some prayers please.  My patience is being tested these days in many areas of my life.  My students are getting on my nerves, sorry to say but I'm getting a little tired of selfish, only child syndrome behaviors. Knitting is making me upset because I have difficulty fixing my mistakes as I am still very very amateur. I'd like be become pregnant in the near future. I am becoming impatient with hearing from the staffing company on potential new jobs.  I am losing patience with driving to work...it seems longer and longer everyday.  Ahhhh....

"But if we hope for what is still unseen by us, we wait for it with patience and composure." Romans 8: 25
"By your steadfastness and patient endurance you shall win the true life of your souls."Luke 21: 19

Dear Lord,
Please help me with my struggles with patience.  Help me realize that Your love is never changing.  Patience makes me stronger, wiser and tolerant of little things.  Help me to realize the future is unknown and to be happy with life as it is today. Allow me to view my mistakes as opportunities. Help me to pour love into my knitting patterns and not frustration. Allow me to wait for the perfect job You want me to have.  Help me to understand a baby will come when You want him to. Help me to be thankful for a car that is reliable. With Your help, I will achieve greater things and  "win true life" filled with happiness. Thank you for everything!

In Jesus Name,
Angela <3 <3

Be Impeccable with your Word

There's a saying, "Treat people the way you want to be treated."  But there is also a saying, "You get treated in life they way you teach people to treat you."  Interesting, huh?  In other words, people send indirect messages to others, unconscious expectations they have on themselves, and then to reverse behavior can be either detrimental or positive.  Women especially need to take ownership of their life.  We have to love ourselves and demand respect from others.  Those who are treated like doormats unconsciously send the message that they are not good enough, or they don't believe they deserve better, etc.  Well that's just bullshit.  You are somebody. You do deserve to be happy.  You do deserve the best in life. You are special and unique.

The Four Agreements is a wonderful Toltec Wisdom book.  It states we make agreements or believes about ourselves, the way we are supposed to live and so on.  If someone makes an agreement that they are ugly, fat or whatever, that is an agreement made with themselves and therefore they believe it.  In my world with my students, that thinking is called negative self talk. The 1st agreement is "Be Impeccable with your Word."  Only speak the truth and use loving words 1st about yourself and others.  Gossip is a form of black magic, poison.  With one negative word, the world can change.  Prime example: Hitler.  His word has such influence and billions have died because his word was so powerful.  Make an attempt to speak kindly of yourself.  God created you perfectly.  There is nothing wrong about your being.

Keep in mind today Proverbs 4:24

²⁴ Keep your mouth free of perversity;
   keep corrupt talk far from your lips.

Love yourself because as my favorite fitness guru, Denise Austin would say, "YOU ARE WORTH IT!"

Ciao Bella,
Angela <3 <3

Hands build a House, Hearts build a Home

This weekend was my niece Elizabeth's 1st birthday party, Halloween themed at our house.  Our home has turned into the party house but more importantly a house of celebration. We love to entertain our family and friends. Holidays, birthdays, girls night, themed parties...all in the name of good fun, food and spirits.  Crystal did a great job decorating, putting together games and crafts for the kiddos, and made all the food herself at her pizzeria.  Fun times!

Overall it was a success. I'm glad our home can make so many memories :)

Happy Monday,

Angela

Forgiveness

My job presented a speaker, Azim Khamisa who has spoken all over the world on teaching how to achieve inner peace through forgiveness of others. He was so inspirational and his story so moving. From his biography:

"Following the murder of his only son Tariq in 1995 through a senseless, gang-related incident, Azim chose the path of forgiveness and compassion rather than revenge, and this amazing choice led to the establishment of the Tariq Khamisa Foundation (TKF) and his subsequent forgiveness work which has reached millions through international speaking, (in 1996 – a crowd of 300,000), public and corporate workshops, video and audio recordings and four published books, including the award-winning From Murder to Forgiveness and the Random House book The Secrets of the Bulletproof Spirit, coauthored with Jillian Quinn."

Azim met the family of the murderer.  He started the foundation with the grandfather of the murderer and has created an empire of love and forgiveness with a message of how it could be prevented.  Azim realized that two families has suffered, both were at either ends of the gun...1 is now in prison while the other no longer with us.  He decided to forgive the gang member and continues to write and visit him in prison.  Tony is his name and it has been 16 year since Tariq's death.  Tony is now a changed man; Azim wants him to work at his foundation when he is released.

A wave of awe and wonderment swept over the students and staff as they listened to Azim pour his heart out.  A student asked, "How did you forgive him?"  Azim replied that decided to do it for himself; he did not want to live in anger; it is not healthy.  His strength came from God the Almighty.

What a great message! I almost lost myself in a ocean of tears as I too was surprised to hear his story. Then I thought, why hold onto grudges, anger and misfortunes? Although he had lost Tariq, he found forgiveness in his heart and now speaks on behalf of his only son to millions of people each year. Violence and revenge creates darkness in our hearts. Our souls become black and spiritless. After the revenge is carried through, then what? More people hurt, wanting revenge, and the cycle never stops.  His message is to prevent violence through the forgiveness.  I bet some people do not know they have the capacity to forgive.

Search inside your soul; listen to your heart telling you to forgive someone today.

Peace be with you,
Angela <3 <3

Alpha and the Omega...the beginning and the end

Well, I've been corresponding with job recruiters,  and may have found a replacement for me at the present job.  Cross your fingers for a smooth transition!  I want to help them out because apparently, therapists are hard to find. On the other hand, I hope a placement will want me as their therapist.  I pray that it will be a place I can settle in and remain established for a long time. This is an end of something that was so experiential for me.  Such a blessing, and opportunity.  It has not stunk going to work.  I got to see this out my window everyday; here's a few snap shots of particularly beautiful mornings.

Such beauty.  It always put me in a great mood.

As far as beginnings, I've starting my knitting group on Wednesday nights.  A wealth of knowledge, experience and conversation lingered as I sat with elderly woman and some same aged gals, learning how to perform the perfect stitch.  It was so enjoyable that I will go back next week too.  Yay for hobbies!

I hope everyone has a wonderful Thursday.

God Bless,
Angela <3 <3

Wisdom Wednesday

I'm finding bible scripture as a coping skill, a way of life, a walk in faith.  One might see me as a "bible thumper" but I see it as being a disciple of the Lord as I post beautiful, meaningful scripture that I find helps me with living.  My mind is so wrapped up on the things I can't stand the most, drama.  It's always the forefront of my being.  I've been living in this hell for quite some time and it has consumed me like revolving doors as it goes round and round my world.   I want to stop. I want to escape evil thoughts and feelings.   I don't get involved with other peoples affairs, yet everybody knows about whats going on in my life. I don't believe in facebook, yet everybody knows what I'm doing. 

After pondering and praying, I came up across Proverb 4:20-27:

My son, pay attention to what I say;
   turn your ear to my words.
²¹ Do not let them out of your sight,
   keep them within your heart;
²² for they are life to those who find them
   and health to one’s whole body.
²³ Above all else, guard your heart,
   for everything you do flows from it.
²⁴ Keep your mouth free of perversity;
   keep corrupt talk far from your lips. ²⁵ Let your eyes look straight ahead;
   fix your gaze directly before you.
²⁶ Give careful thought to the^[c] paths for your feet
   and be steadfast in all your ways.
²⁷ Do not turn to the right or the left;
   keep your foot from evil.

"Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it."  Control your thoughts, as it shapes your life.  In other words, our thoughts and feelings directly affect our actions and words. If I do not engage in corrupt talk then according to Law of Attraction and Proverbs 4, I can control my thoughts and feelings and the chains of drama can finally free me.  Only fill my heart with Love and I shall get love in return.  I fill my heart with word of God and He will walk with me in life.  Protect me from the evil because Good always beats Evil!

No matter what happens in life, I am completely trusting and faithful that I will be okay.  I am a survivor and believer.  Nothing can stop me.  Not even the skeptic, the judgemental, the blamers, the what if'ers. I walk in faith; therefore, love will take me places I've never dreamed.

Amen sistas,
Angela <3 <3

Hold on for One more Day

I had a friendly passenger this morning as I drove to work.  The biggest, most scariest spider I had ever seen.  He traveled with me for 80 miles and did not loose grip to my passenger mirror. He then was swatted across Starr's parking lot, so now he has a new home lol.  What are the odds of him staying on there for 1 hour and 15 minutes?

It got me thinking metaphorically about being a survivor and holding on to dear life, even when it doesn't seem to bright.  What does it mean to you to have True Happiness? I am constantly searching for inner peace and balance as I am a scaled Libra.  A perfect blend of love, happiness, and joy.

 

Psalm 1 True Happiness

 ¹ Blessed is the one
   who does not walk in step with the wicked
or stand in the way that sinners take
   or sit in the company of mockers,
² but whose delight is in the law of the LORD,
   and who meditates on his law day and night.
³ That person is like a tree planted by streams of water,
   which yields its fruit in season
and whose leaf does not wither—
   whatever they do prospers.  ⁴ Not so the wicked!
   They are like chaff
   that the wind blows away.
⁵ Therefore the wicked will not stand in the judgment,
   nor sinners in the assembly of the righteous.
 ⁶ For the LORD watches over the way of the righteous,
   but the way of the wicked leads to destruction.

Pure poetry. There were comments made last night by a family member that made me angry.  Another, "mind your own business" type comment.  I realized the Devil was using those words to make me upset and speaking through the person. I opened my Bible and meditated on this Psalm.  We have no place in our house for Satan.  God has and continues to bless hubby and I, and I will not stand for any evil or rain on my parade comments or remarks.

All is better :) God if victorious again!  Inner peace wins!

Love,
Angela <3 <3

Libra Moon

Welcome October! I'm officially out of my 20's. It feels nice to be grown and accomplished, thank you Jesus. The weekend family party went well.  Lots of good food and spirits.  Everyone was gone by 11pm which seems so early, but that's how us old folks do it ;)

  My goals for this year are:

• Be assertive and let people know how I really feel
• Make a healthy housing for a baby
• Focus on my family and career- No more drama
• Let go of the past- past pains, grudges, failures
• Surrender and remain humble in front of the Lord

The term "humility" comes from the Latin word humilitas, a noun related to the adjective humilis, which may be translated as "humble", but also as "grounded", "from the earth", You can be humble and strong at the same time. You can talk courteously and lovingly, regardless of the situation—even if you need to be firm or take strong actions.

Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen (Ephesians 4:29).

This speaks to gossip as well.  I've found such simplicity in life and attribute a lot to the Law of Attraction when speaking lovingly about others.  When speaking in gossip tongues, it can take on a new life form that becomes ugly really fast.  Its easy to get wrapped up in conversations, and then feel a need to speak about it with others. And before long, the whole world takes sides, puts blames, has feelings and so on and so forth. Gossip is poison; therefore, my mission is to rebuke all negative thoughts and words against others today and always. 

Practice Test:  Speak nicely about everyone you come in contact today. And see God's blessings towards your humility unfold.

Happy Monday,
 <3 <3 Angela